I suppose my food dominated side gives you a glimpse into the current
desires/wants life. This baby growing in my belly is quite the hunger bug. Unfortunately, veggies and fruits are never at the top of my cravings so we are always finding sneaky ways to trick my body into eating nutrients. Bopants has fallen in love with a friend's borrowed amp and is determined to have a beach vacation.. in the middle of the semester, in the middle of Texas, with a pregnant wife. That one's a dreamer! Hope you are off to a delightful kick start to your week :]
Rebekah Philip is no contest my voice and hair crush. The harmonies these two create off the cuff is downright brilliant. To Be With You is one of my favorite songs and this stripped down version literally gives me goosebumps.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately about what my next 5 months will look like. It’s absolutely insane to consider graduating, moving to Dallas, taking the CFA Level I exam, turning 21, starting work, and having a baby- all in 5 months. None of these things individually are things to stress about; however, whenever you lump them all in succession, even the best of us have to get a little stressed. It has been about 5 weeks since D’Ann and I told everyone that we are having a baby, and it’s been 15 weeks since we discovered ourselves. With every week, I absolutely cannot wait for the next. I have this pregnancy app on my phone (no, I’m not lying), and each week it gives you exciting little updates. One week, you discover your baby is as a big as an avocado, the next week an apple. I love that. In fact, my mother-in-law usually asks a week in advance, “What’s next week? What food item is noodle next?” I totally understand though; I can’t wait either! This thinking process suggests these 9 months can’t go fast enough.
I’ve recently had coffee with a good friend of mine, Dustin, who has a 4-month old. He said, “Man, I’m gonna sound old, but these months have seriously gone by so fast.” It made me think twice about this anticipation stage that I’m in. I think my motivation for “fast-forwarding” is simply to get through the hard part. Certain parts of my life I wish I could fast forward, and other parts I would love to put in slow motion. I don’t think we get to choose both options. Some people lead intensely fast lives, and others slower- there isn’t much go-between. With that being said, if you have something that is greatly anticipated coming up in your life, you’re probably going to have to do a lot to get there. If anything, you’re going to have to wait. I would argue that patience is “payment” enough.
In finance, you’re taught that if you don’t know anything else, you have to understand the relationship between risk and return. If you are offered a “sweet deal” in investments, you’re going to pay for it somewhere else. For example, if you have the opportunity to flip houses, you might observe that you will obviously earn a higher return than a savings account at your local bank. So go for it, right? The answer depends. You have to account for the increased risk in flipping houses, and you should be compensated accordingly. There is a positive relationship between risk and return: the more return, the more risk (and the inverse is true).
Now, back to babies. I am so absolutely amped for this great joy that God has blessed us with. Just 5 more months and I will get to hold my daughter/son! You could say that there is a huge reward coming. However, with my knowledge of finance, there’s gotta be some risk in the deal as well. Of course there is; everyone knows that getting pregnant is a risky thing. There can be health problems, miscarriages, insurance mishaps, and even the work in preparation. That, ultimately, is what I’ve been learning. It’s in the waiting; it’s in the risk that God really shows himself in. Whenever we are flying through time like a torpedo, it’s hard to see what’s around. Slow down and look at your surroundings. The real risk lies in missing it. Missing the anticipation stage. Many Jews missed it two thousand years ago. They might have been flying through time, trying to get to the end. Whenever Jesus came, they laughed at him- they missed it! God intentionally put them in an anticipation stage. It’s easy for us to look back on that story, (which, by the way, is our story), and see how clear it all was. I just hope we can soak it in, if just for this season. I hope I can not only “get through” these 5 months, but that I would grow during this time as well. Soon enough, I’ll definitely give this blog an update on how it’s all going. In the meantime: happy waiting!
I realized Snapchat dominated this collection of photos, but that is probably an accurate representation of my life recently. For Valentines, Bopants and I took advantage of Red Lobster's Lobstersfest deal and consumed an embarrassing amount of cheddar biscuits. My papa bear and our dear videography friend, Austin Wideman, created this short video to inspire teachers and students to view others through the lense of empathy.
Bopants daily surprises me with Harry Potter related gems that always bring a smile to my face. Madi Mae got a job this week in College Station!!! Double whoop and congrats to my favoritest nugget of Aggieland. I can't wait to road trip down to see her next semester. Texts and snaps like these featured are why we are such besties.
The Paper Kites had me with their opening notes all those years ago. "Wake up to the sound of your fleeting heart. When you go, what you leave is a work of art. On my chest, on my heart" Whaat. These lyrics are superb. The Music Feeds studio perfectly sums up who they are, providing a picturesque background for their amazing vocals.
Dear Sonic Happy Hour, Thank you for getting me through the past couple of days with vanilla cream Dr. Pepper sugar rushes. One day when my baby is 385% ADD, I might have identified the original root. Dear Miles Teller, You are hands down my new Hollywood favorite. The Spectacular Now gave me faith in Shaliene Woodley's Divergent and Fault in Our Stars performances. You are utterly hilarious and I hope to see more of you on camera. Dear American Idol, 10 points to Gryffindor for casting Harry Connick Jr as a judge this season. Dynamite. Dear Husband/Bopants, Last weekend we binge watched Dr. Who while eating nothing but breakfast foods for 3 meals. Prime example of why we are going to rock as parentals. Dearest Noodle/Baby, We have both done our fair share of growing and expanding this week. Saw you on the monitor yesterday as you raised double high fives. Feel free to develop a morse code/telepathy language to help me understand what you are craving, because goodness knows my whole guessing game is the pits for all parties involved. We are beyond ready for you to come out and join us on planet earth!