tres mas dias!

I'm in that 4th grade Christmas countdown mode where every second passing by seems all the more brilliant because it means that much shorter timespan to me finally being home!! Every time I think about Lubbock, I get that butterflies in your tummy feeling that bubbles into a huge radiant smile of sheer joy. My list of food desires is rapidly growing insanely long, but I plan on hitting as many homejoints as humanly possible. My current favorite game to play with Lubbock aggs is "If we were in Lubbock right now we'd be doing *go!*" and we have come up with some pretty hilariously wonderful fillintheblank responses, if I do say so myself. I love this sensation. This longing for home. It only makes me all the more pumped for heaven, because that sense of community and home will be all the more amazing!! Mmmm, I just can't even wait. 

Complete assurance in Christ has been my underline weekly life lesson. Finding myself In Him, bringing my every issue to Him, discovering my life passion with Him. An old school Jana Stanfield song has been stuck in my head the past few days. "I'm not lost, I am exploring. Life is an adventure worth enjoying. Though I may not know where I am going, I am not lost, I am exploring." Such a catchy 90s tune..and I have decided to embrace the words to their fullest. We are where we are. We are who we are. So we may as well dive head first into the present and soak up all it has to offer. Sometimes fear or the past or bad test grades shield us from living life to the fullest, but the Lord has placed us wherever we are for a reason. Time to put on the big girl panties and live life here and now. On that note: I plan on going to bed early and dreaming about being babied by momma this weekend :) Oh the ironies of life..

Things I love this fine Wednesday:

calming in the chaos

I can officially say I have taken 4 college exams in 3 days and I'm still alive and kickin!! Bleck, I feel so collegiate saying that.. These past weeks have zoomed by in a blur of last minute cram sessions and seas of new awesome Aggie faces. After my last class today, I crashed on the beanbag and absorbed the bodily beating of inadequate sleep and foreign eating habits. My new normal is so radical from anything I have ever dealt with, and that is coming from a early high school graduate that had a real world office job and nannied kiddos everyday the past 8 months. Strange thing, all this change. 

Mirroring the cry of my earthy body, the Lord has lately been calling me in the calm escape of His love. All week He has reminded me, "I am your rescue!" Why do I stress out about anything when I know the Creator of Everything loves me and wants to make my day in the most unexpected ways. Hmmm. Food for thought there. God has been restoring my energy IN Him, breaking me down to my core so that He alone can build me up. Even now, it amazes me how His fingerprint is my life (I would say all over, but that really doesn't justify how much awing orchestration I have seen lately). In the midst of whatever crazy junk we are going through, He is always there just eyeballing us, knowing our steps and anticipating our every move. Today has been the first day in a while that I have just sat. sat. and sat. and sat with the lover of my failures. I would totally encourage you to, wherever you are in whatever you are doing. Breathe. Take a chill pill and just be. 

curiosityshoppe - love me some wood carved postcards

"Be joyful. Grow to maturity. Encourage one another. Live in harmony and peace. Then the God of love and peace will be with you." - 2 Corinthians 13:11

craving colorado

Due to a prolonged afternoon snooze, my body is rejecting my genius plan to get to bed early in preparation for a weekend filled with road tripping and last minute test cramming. Go figure. At least my awesome roomie is awake and kicking to keep me musical company. Lyrics are my love. In build up of Jason Reeve's tonight I will paste some quality songwriting from his awesome self: "Someone is waiting, someone who understands exactly how you feel. Someone is dreaming, someone is hoping just that this will be the day, that you, you take your eyes off the ground out of the blue. See that someone is looking right back at you.."

I want to ball up, relocate to small-city Colorado, burrow into a leather chair and drink boatloads coffee until the good Lord beams me up into His Kingdom. That is the mood I am drowning in. Knowing that fall and whimsical weather storms are sneaking up on the entire rest of America, waves of jealousy are washing over me in ways I can not explain. I want cold and rainy. To say the least, College Station is refuting my oversized sweatshirt and cardigan lust. Luckily, chill out tunes are keeping me company with simply fall playlists.


As for what the Lord has been placing on my heart lately, simplification has been engrained into my soul time and time again this week. Boiling down to the basics, accepting my flawed repulsiveness, letting the Lord rebuild my broken soul; that sort of meat and potatoes. "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and thanksgiving, lift your requests to the Lord. The peace of God, which surpasses human understanding, will guard your thoughts in Jesus Christ." Philippians 4: 6-7. This past week I have been missing home and the comfort of familiar faces a whole stinkin much. More than anything in the world, I want to hermit with best friends, eat pretzels smothered in icing, pop in old movies and retreat into a world of fantasy. Jesus showed me that this desire will be all the more cherished when I do return home, due to my longing in this distance. I literally get butterflies when I think of being home again! Magnify this mental image times a gajillion and God said "Danimal, this is heaven!!" I can not wait to have my raw craving for Christ incandescently satisfied when I finally get to hangout with him 24/eternity in Heaven :] So good. That is all for tonight/this morning. All you Lubbockites have a blasty blast at the game and soak up the company and amazing weather. Jason Reeves, here we (Asleez, JoPo, and Michaeleeeee) come!

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homework avoidance with a cup of joe

Here I am sitting in Sweet Eugene's, distracted from my original purpose and mile long to-do list thanks to the world wide web at the tips of my typing fingers. Nevermind the fact that I have 3 papers due this week or 4 upcoming tests.. They can always wait for a quick facebook perusal and blogger updating. John just came on the radio, hello perfection (p.s. Wendy, I can not express how much I love our daily lyric texts, you're getting one now). He obviously endorses my ignorance of the so-called "school world."  I found this adorable wall hanging and instantly thought of a gazillion walls in my room to hang it on. I resisted the urge to insert my credit info, deciding posting it on my free blog wall was more economical.

I'm going to attempt to keep this sort. Time keeps on whizzing by and I still can not believe that I have already been an official Aggieland resident for almost a month! Strangeness to the maximum. Recently I have been trekking through Francis Chan's Forgotten God, a book about utilizing the Spirit of the Lord which is so often watered down in our society. Interestingly enough, the Lord mimicked this message in my quiet time today. "Letting your sinful nature leads your mind to death. But letting the Spirit control your mind leads to life and peace." - Romans 8: 6-7. So often I don't take advantage of the Trinity and walk life on my own, forgetting that the living and active Spirit resides in my humble human corpse. I love it when God subtly engrains one simple statement over and over until you finally get with the program and realize His voice. Handing over all of my nasty life garbage allows Him to restore my soul with His peace. Geez, I just love my Daddy. 

Here is a brief list of other random things I love this terrific Tuesday:

2. Chalk walls - Anthropology 

content in the Chinese

My tummy is as happy as a clam thanks to the world's best holeinthewall Chinese ever. Mmmmmm, I don't have one regret about my 2% skipping out of the football game after a whole 35 minutes. This week breezed by. Last weekend already seems like it happened a lifetime ago, but as is the normality of college life. My band obsession has recently been extremely satisfied thanks to seeing Owl City, John Mayer, and Dave Matthews Band all in one 7 day time period. Jason Reeves is coming up in one week.. I'm lovin the short gap between myself and bands I stalk. I have decided I should purchase some these stellar talkies to take on my band roadie trips to keep up with fellow band nerds.

Once again, Urban at it's prime.

Routine is starting to pick up and typical human perspective is beginning to bombard my realities. The Lord has broken me time and time again these past few days. Many a sermon has spanked me in the face or pretty much begun with "Dear D'Ann, let me correct your pride and failure in the next 30 minutes." It has not been the most pleasant experience, but it has been much needed. Today, Christ unloaded this string of truths on me during quiet time and summoned me back to the simple Christian mission to focus on Him, and Him alone. "Young people, it's wonderful to be young! Enjoy every minute of it. Do everything you want to do; take it all in. But remember that you must give an account to God. So refuse to worry, keep your body healthy. But remember that youth, with your whole life before you, is meaningless." Ecclesiastes 11:9-10. Lately, I have been so confused on how to take in college. Everything has seemed centered around fun and has struck me as utterly pointless. I love how the Lord agrees, but sends me on a mission. He understands and endorses the rejection of worldly adoration of youth and senselessness. However, He states to hand it over to Him. At the end of the day, I answer to the creator of the Universe. He cares. And that is all I will ever need. 

All I have to add is a piece of truth that smacked me at the game today. Stop living your life for man. If college has taught me one thing the past few days, it is that the world is one big contradiction. People repeat "do what is right" "trust in God" and other generic feel good phrases, yet two minutes later they vomit a list of things  I "should" be doing all over my schedule. I can't live to make everyone happy, so I need to stop tying please to people. I am the Lord's and He conquered the world. I'll leave you on a happy note. Blogstalking this afternoon, I discovered this brilliant photo encompassing to raw beauty of simple kiddos and music. I can't wait to have tinies to photoblog.

soakin up the sauna

Came in from driving this morning to find out that our floor A/C has broken. Currently, I am sweating more after waking up than I do after draining work outs. I'm going to keep it short and sweet and bail to locate a more conducive survival climate. This alarm clock has become my new temporary obsession, I want one!
thank you Urban

This weekend was without a doubt the most fantastic/amazing/exhausting/inspiring/encouraging adventure I have had in a very long while. Seeing Dallas and contrasting the small scale UTD college life to A&M opened my eyes to the variety of experiences my fellow Lubbockites are undergoing. Being with Wendy/Jacki/Ben brought out a feeling of warmth and home that I did not even realize I missed. John Mayer was perfect. No other way to describe it. The Lord shone through every moment and knit together utter perfection for His daughters. Lying in bed, reviewing how awesome God is and how much He loves a couple of Lubbock girls humbled me to complete gratification. Although I am confused and lost and still making rookie mistakes, my Father is satisfying my every need and fulfilling my random life joys. After the concert, I drove back home by detour of Austin to see Bo and Cameron. Once again , I was baffled with how much Jesus intervened and orchestrated the perfect Sunday. I would not have been able to dream up a better weekend; literally, each and every moment was timed to a T with His handiwork. It never ceases to amaze me that the Dude who created this insane planet loves me enough to make sure I am covered. Furthermore, He is meeting my greatest desires, not just bottom line necessities. Mmmm, I love me some Jesus. 

On a wayyy more random note: Austin blew my mind with the amount of unique bicycle loving mini-Lance Armstrongs. I stumbled across this crazy contraption and developed the sudden urge to purchase the most insane bicycle and kick off a Tour de America.

compliments of Kate Bingamin-Burk

bring on those rainy days

Today has been brilliantly picturesque here in the good ol' CStat! This morning I lazily rolled out of bed to realize it was Fake Friday :] One week of college and somehow I am still alive and kickin. After morning coffee and a muggy walk with the awesome roomie, Biology bugged me for the next 5 hours. However, the day swung back in my favor thanks to a drizzly afternoon walk and Parent Trap movie marathon. I am currently in a very Garden Stateish mood.

This weather and unconscious desire for winter to hit Texas makes for a wonderful letter writing mood. One of those reflective, curl up and get lost in your thoughts moments. Translation: Lubbock Pen Pals be expecting letters to be arriving in your new home locations in the very near future. My goal is to obtain old stationary this weekend such as example a:

Today the Lord kept it short and sweet as He blew my mind with the simplicity of His Word. "Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again-rejoice! Let everyone see that you are considerate in all you do. Remember, the Lord is coming soon. Don't worry about anything: instead, pray about everything." Philippians 4:4-6. Gentle Spirit slaps in the face are always needed when that selfish little voice in the back of my head begins to take over my body. In ALL I do, I should WANT to be joyful. Not because the Savior of the universe asks, but because I am loved and have everything in the One. Furthermore, He promises to come save my happypants someday, so I just need to take a chill pill and love on those around me.. Love it when He softly punches me in the face with His realities. No worries Baby J, this weekend I'll be sure to be spreading my lovin. John Mayer, Wendy, Cameron, AlanTaylorBo, Dtown say whatttttttttt

lost in the introduction

Here goes nothing. Since everything else in my life is uncharted territory, I figured why not delve into the vast expansion of the global unknown, more commonly referred to as the world wide web. My life is at a crazy crossroads and with friends and family spread out, blogging seems like a good way to stay in communication with everyone.  I have yet to pinpoint what this bloglet will entail.. You'll just have to wait and see. I'm feel like a mini Meg.

Life adjustment and kicking off new life chapters just about defines my current status. College life is crazy, scary, awesome, strange, endearing, interesting and new. Last night at Breakaway, Ben Stuart baffled me (as per usual) with his message about starting over and how where we are defines who we are. Our context dictates our plot. Our setting molds our character. Who we are around will ultimately shape who we will become. The message itself wasn't necessarily mind blowing, however there was one thing that has stuck with me.

Paul is writing 1st Thessalonians to a group of infant believers he had to communicate with pen-pal style in note writing. After installing their church, Paul must leave them to fin for themselves in a lost world. These believers were left without a spiritual father to guide their steps. What did Paul say right off the bat to this group of young students, ready to take on the world? 1 Thessalonians 1 roughly says "You are not alone." Paul could have said anything, however he put emphasis on the fact that we are not alone and that we are found IN Christ/God the Father.

I love this because much like Jason, we are at this unknown beginning and already there have been multiple circumstances where I have felt utterly isolated. Ben said "Prepositions define relationships." Fact. We are no longer battling everyday issues singlehandedly, we are sphered in God. We live in a Baby J bubble, and personally I'm liking the sound of that. Knowing that regardless of my academia, location, friends, etc. the God of the Universe has my back!  well that alone makes facing the unknown wayyyyy less intimidating.

Reviewing that message has already kicked my day off to a swell start. More random postings on who knows what to come.