When Bopants started interviewing in Dallas, Jesus started making it pretty clear that he might be opening doors to stay in Texas the next few years. Since this was completely opposite of our "move to the midwest and never look back" plan, we started weighing the pro's and con's. We prayed and chatted and dreamed and eventually knew the Dallas job was the clear right choice for us. This sped up that inevitable "sooo...when should we have kids convo" that every couple gets to have after a few
Now that we are crossing over the first trimester threshold, the lil noodle is starting to become more and more real. This week we heard it's rapid heartbeat and saw baby hands and baby feet. Made all this
The utter joy of the past 3 months can not be explained in one
As mentioned above and before, since early elementary I have had some major love/hate battles with my body. I've debated leaving all this out because 1. it's awkward 2. everyone expects a super joyful "I'm a happy-dandy new mommy" post 3. it's just awkward. But I think back to reading Shauna's novels years ago and hearing her chronicle ultimate forgiveness of her body after multiple miscarriages and a later healthy childbirth. She opened my eyes to the honesty of embracing my full self, good and bad, and she was geniously correct. I am only 12 weeks in on this journey and I am astounded at how much mental healing has been restored as I watch my body grow and change and for the first time in..forever truly feel freedom. The fact that this body that I have over-exercised/starved/binged/hated/shrank/cried over a 15 year span now begins nursing and giving life to another human - it's basically a snapshot of the gospel. Just seeing how much I have changed in the past few months, I can't wait to see what God does with another 6. Anywho, siderant over.
We can't wait to find out if lil noodle is a She or a He. I just can't even fathom that we are 1/3 done. In approximately 6ish months, we will have a live/breathing/human/real baby in our arms... WHAAAAT?!? Welp, over and out.